Unknown land

I have to admit that I am afraid of what's to come, scared to death, just because it's unknown. I've come this far, and I have to say that I'm proud of myself, I'm really fucking proud of myself. But still, I'm worried, worried to the point of letting the stomach twist and turn, inside out, upside down. I feel dizzy writing this, and my head is still a mess.

Can I do it on my own? I have to do it on my own. At this point my hands are shaking.

Everything will be fine, right? I need to calm the fuck down, I tend to get too worried too soon, and I know everything will be fine. Nothing's written in stone yet, and I've come this far! They want me. I shouldn't let my dreams slip through my fingers that easy, I'm going to fight, and I'm going to win.

But I have to admit that I'm fucking scared of being on my own over there.